What's your MGSF story?

[drcroc]

Reading all of your posts got me thinking about that time, and I went back and looked at my old profile, Black Cat.  I can't actually access that account anymore though since I have no idea what email it's registered to now.  None of the ones I still use or have access to anyway.

I guess I joined in 2011 after lurking for quite some time, looking at threads and profiles, trying to understand the community since it somehow seemed different there than really any other forum I'd been on.  I remember reallyyyyy liking the dead cell graphics and actually had hopes of joining that org in the back of my mind at first when I started posting on MGSF.  I was at a really troubled time in my life at that point but didn't really realize it, and didn't have the perspective to understand my own issues or the tools to actually work on them.  I'm sure I said some pretty out there/cringe stuff though but eh I guess it happens when you're young lol.

Truthfully though, I never had real or good friends who actually cared about me up to that point.  I was used to people using me and mistreating me or even abusing me.  When I got on MGSF though and started talking to people that didn't really happen.  In fact, it felt like some of the friendships I was building with people were actually real and positive and uplifting.  It was something I wasn't used to and didn't know how to react, so I guess I was unfortunately hostile sometimes with people since I was unaware of how to be a decent friend, but I would learn over time and part of my growth as a person was having a lot of friends from MGSF just kinda stick around all this time.  Genuinely love you Suede and Null, I'm always here for you, and apologies to anyone I forgot to name here right now. :3

I've gotten a lot more in touch with my emotions, and learned a lot about myself since the old days, but there's still much work to be done.  I want to be around on this forum though and try to stay active and keep up with everyone.  I'm really happy this forum is a thing, it's very reminiscent of MGSF in the before times and it makes me feel very happy somewhere deep inside my brain.  I'm just so not used to typing stuff out like this anymore lol, I normally just do short form messages to friends but this will be a nice change of pace.  

All of you to me have been there while I've been going through life, and I feel a deep sense of respect for all of you as I've had the opportunity to chat and just shoot the shit and get to know a lot of you.  I really want to help this community shine in whatever way I can.